This is a very personal record for me because I expose my inner feelings quite a bit on this one. I remember literally breaking down after I finished recording the demo. Crying my eyes out. I almost kept this unreleased. I loved and lost more times than I care to remember. Needing, wanting and longing to be loved and when it happened I ran, sabotaged, doubted, stopped short. Never allowing myself to completely open my heart to give and receive love. What's crazy I'm a very loving and compassionate person. I LOVE love. Finally I had to come to a place where I didn't want lose anymore or anyone else due to my reservations and fears about the unknown or my past which led to no love in reserve. DON'T HOLD BACK! It's OK to love with all your heart.

The track is cinematic in feel with some tension and drama like the story in the lyrics. I had never attempted to sing a song with vibrato but I felt it best convey the sadness and fragileness of my state of mind when writing it and that was for the 2015 demo. When it came time to re-record it for the album I was hesitant because I knew I would have to go back to that space emotionally to deliver it with the same believability as the demo without trying to mimic it. That was so hard and to be honest it was the last song I did because there was some dread there revisiting that dark place. What you hear is not acting, it's real.

I brought my guitar playing to forefront on this album more than any others in the past and my solo on this song is probably one of the most powerful guitar solos I've ever recorded because I was still in that emotional space when I did it.